Man, do I feel shitty today! I had a flare up last night and its still bad today. I had to take two pain pills this morning and they're not doing much other than making me woozy. I was naughty and took two prednisone this morning (only supposed to take one) but damnit, I'm so tired of hurting! I'm really trying to keep my positive attitude, but I think today I just need to let myself feel shitty. I hate feeling shitty, I hate feeling angry and frustrated and all these other negavite feelings, but I need to just feel them, then I can get on with things. Tomorrow will be more positive and be a better day. I WILL go to work and WILL be cheerful - even on a Monday.